Isnin, 28 September 2009

RAYA UMAH KAKA RYNA

I don't understand what i'm doing arrr, keep falling in love then after a few weeks i don't have that feeling anymore. I got hurt once and now macam i want revange arrr. now my feelings for fuad macam nada but i'l try too stay with himm. I just have to keep in my mind that i love him so much. That time me and Fuadd putus and i told my sis then she told me too go back with shen =.=', why can't people understand that i don't love shen anymore. Takkan i couple with shen even though i don't love him. My moto was always : I can try too love a person that love me, but i don't think i can love shen arr. I already learn how too love si Waie, Fadz, Pele and Ash. i shouldn't have learned how too love pele errr. Shen is my past now and i wana leave it that way.



I went raya too at my kaka ryna house at 5, at first me and carlo forgot the way too kaka's house we both got lost at muara. but lama2 we found our way. The food they made was yummy i ate 4 plates of rice and i finish there ayam heheheh =]. After eating i help them with there guest. One of the czn of kaka ryna is cutee arrr but nerd 8]. Me and jen had funn lots of funn ehe. Today i wasn't bored.

Me and abg elmoo went raya at fuad's house today it was fun. We arrived there at 7.48pm. Me and abg elmoo went craazy just to find fuad's house we kept shouting. There were two black car infront of us so we just follow them bcuz maybe they are going to fuad's house also, well it did and little did i know that two black cars belong to Jeun and Elmoo. Four of us went in together and salam everybody. Fuad only layan me and elmoo. After a few mints everybdy went home and there was only me, fuad, elmoo and fuad's family. All his family was asking me if i was his girlfriend but i just smiled at them bcuz i was shy. There was this time when me and fuadd sit next to each other at the living room then all his family went to the living room so i said why don't we just sit outside so we went out side suddenly everybody went out side jua. His mom said to me that i was ok for fuadd and she said ''jgnth ko ptskn si fuadd ani ok udh ea atu, ea syg kn ko''. I was happy that his family like me, the funny thing was there was this young girl 3 year old she kept pointing at elmoo while saying PUKI!!! many times until we went home. It was really fun. My day \m/.

At night i wounder how am i supposed to feel when Fuadd's not here because at day light i'm always by this side. When i go to sleep at night i dream about him only two of us sharing happines and love in a far away place. hmm. When night has come and the land's are dark, when the moon is the only light we'll see look at the stars can any of you count them?? that's how much i miss Fuadd.

I used too belive in love but now that i used to have my heart broken i just don't see how i could have belived in it, that's why i don't really try to love my boyfriend. You know what Loving someone it's hard to regreat Losing someone is hard to accept but with all the hurt we've felt letting go is the most painful yet. The feeling i used to have for a guy is no longer there and for the first time in a while i don't really care.

c= It's not what i feel for Fuadd it's what i don't feel for anyone but Fuadd, my friends asked me what i saw in Fuadd and my only answer was EVERYTHING. He is the story of my life. I used too ran to him but now i run from him cuz i'm scared to get my heart broken.

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sungkai!! sungkai!! lapar ku eee muahahhhahahha

alum sungkai a makan udah inda hormat urg yg sungki a

can anyone wait a life time for the ones they love?? i think yes bcuz it you realy love him/her you wouldn't fall for another. but sometimes we can learn to forget that person and learn to love someone that already love us. waiting for someone that you love but dont live you back is just a waste of your time when you could try to be happy with someone else

abg eis, abg elmoo and zacky are fun to hangout with bcuz they are all funny and they don't like to see me sad plus they are always there for me. aku syg durg, heheheeh. me, emoo and eis made a game who sleep 1st on sunday 'today' we must ucp and abg elmoo yg ttidur so now me and eis wil ucp him gayface

it's been 3 days since i could sleep.everynight when i try to close my eyes they keep opening back and im thinking too much, i wounder what's going on with me. sleeping 5am isn't normal for me but at least i got my friends to stay up with me hahahah.







i had a fun day with them tadi, but somehow i feel strange like i don't know just strange. i feel a bit sad tadi and eis kept trying to make me smile which i did but eis isn't the problem it's zacky, i love him but does he love me?? i ask eis about it and he said he does love me and now i'm just confuse my heart is playing games with me again and i hate it

today i went out with zacky,eis and elmoo. at first i was with eis because zacky and elmoo have arrived yet. i was alone and a few mins later zacky came i became happy. then we spent everymin together

it's the 1st time i read shen's blog and lupanya he look as me as his sis when he was with tikah and now i look at him as a brother and i think he menyasal, everyone know's love doesn't last forever it just last for a few months or years but never forever. me and shen used to be closed but not anymore, sometimes i read the letter that he gave me and i'll have a flashback about how 'we' fell in love.everytime there is a chance for me and shen to be together there will be someone in our way for example aleen and pele

starting over is what i am going to do now. i wana be who i used to be, the girl that hate falling in love because she tough i wasn't right to fall in love, the girl that's always alone it's always her and her books. i wana study for my SPN 21 from now on. changing isn't hard if i really want too.

I'm happy with khairee, his friends are fun but somehow i keep thinking of g-floor. This is how it went, it's was 10pm somehow i felt like khairee was at mall, my heart keep pushing me to go to the entrance which i did, when i reach the entrance i looked right and left but he wasn't there i got realy sad then a vocie of a man called out my name 'abby' i turned back and he and his fwns were there i got happy

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i love g-floor so much and i know everybody knows that i will never stop loving him .. it's his pink t-shirt and teddy bear that help me sleep at night .. when i hug him i know every things going to be alright but now all of that is gone but it doesn't mean i don't love him .. i'm still hoping that we will be back together again